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Tuesday, January 31, 2006

the goddess of the valley



The Goddess of the valley does not die;
she is called the mysterious female.

The door of the mysterious female
is called the root of heaven and earth.

Adaptable, capacious, it is like a deep well;
use it as you may, it never tires.

(Tao-te-ching, chapter 6)


whether chinese or swedish... you'll find pure beauty... at this svensk page :-)

Friday, January 27, 2006

hmmm... summer rain, please

You Are Rain
You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming.Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you.
You are best known for: your touch
Your dominant state: changing
What Type of Weather Are You?

Saturday, January 21, 2006

survey

About Me
Nameerwin
Nicknamecaru
Birthday27th september
Ageageless, i'm an elf ;-)
Height1,70m (approximately)
Hair Colorblack (nearly)
Eye Colorgreen (greyish)
Have You Ever
Fallen for your besfriendno, she fell for me
Kissed someone who was just your friendyeah
Been rejectedyes *sob*
Been in lovewait... let me count
Used someoneNO!
Cheated on someoneno...
Been cheated onyes... and i immediately dumped the bitch
Done something you regretregret? what's that?
Do you ...
Color your hairnot nowadays...
Have tattosyes
If so how many*counts* 4
Have any peircingsyup
If so how manyjust one... there used to be 6 or so
Have a bf/gfhmmm... difficult to say, just now *blush*
Like thunderstormsyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaah!
Ever get off the damn computernot since i discovered these surveys
Have you/Do you have...
Considered a life of crimenot seriously
Considered being a hookerno...
Coneidered being a pimpno, eeeeeeek!
Split personalitieswait... i have to go and ask caru
Obsessionssome minor ones, i guess
Panicif the situation warrants it
Anxietyreally, no.
Depression/Considered suicidyes, and yes... yeeears ago, though. but i'm alive now, which shows it wasnt all that serious :-)
Right now..
Current clothesbright red t-shirt, dark red trousers
Current moodintrospective
Current hairblown about by the wind, needs to be washed... messy
Current musicmussorgsky
Current annoyancethe "intelligent design" debate
Current perfume/cologneperfume? pERFUME? what do you take me for?
Current thing you should be doingwrite some essay or the other, i guess
Current crushrather more than a crush... did i mention she had blue eyes?
Favorite
Drinkmango juice
ColorRED
Candywhite chocolate
Tv Shownever watch tv
MovieThe Curse of the Were Rabbit
Placeanywhere there's water, and trees, and lots of sun
Person to talk toi've mentioned her twice... you dont expect me to tell you her NAME?
Do your perfer..
McDonalds or Burger Kingthe managers should be forced to live on their own junk
Marry the Perfect Lover or the perfect friendboth!
Root Beer or Dr Pepperseriously, i don't know what they are
Sunshine or Rainthunderstorm!
Spring or Fallspring, anytime. and autumn too... at least, before it gets cold
Winter or Summersummer! want to go swimming. also, girls look their best in summer.
Vanilla or Chocolatechocolate. none of that boring vanilla stuff.
Snowboarding or Skingfor me, a sledge.
Lights on or Offcandles. and when they have burned down, darkness. and when the morning comes, sunlight.
Are you...
Understandingup to a point...
Open Mindedvery.
Bad Temperedjust attack me, and you will see what comes of it ;-)
Happyyeah *bounce*
Attractiveto whom?
Bored Easilyno. never at all.
Sadhavent been really sad for a long time... angry, yes, disappointed, yes, but not SAD.
Uniqueapart from the split personality thing we talked about earlier, yes :-D
What do you like in a Girl/ Boyintelligence. naturalness. being caring, but straightforward. gracious movements. melodious voice.
EyesBLUE!! (for the thirty sixth time)
Hair colordark brown
Long or short hairLONG
Hieghtjust about my height, or maybe smaller...
Body Typeslim, but not bony... a few muscles dont hurt ;-)
Personalitysweet. neither too dumb nor too sophisticated... no nonsense about her
Random
How would you describe yourselffreaky. sweet, if you don't hurt me or make me angry. the devil incarnate, if you insist on a point that's utter nonsense
Do you have any Pets?not at the moment... would love some cats, though
Have any syblings?one sister
What do you want to be when you grow up?a child.
Do you wanna get married and have kids?kids, maybe. marriage, eeek, no.
What is your best physical Trait?i like all my physical Traits.
What is the best thing about your personality?which?
What words do you overuse"definitely" and "shit"
Whats the most annoying thing about youmaybe the fact that i select very carefully what information about myself to give to whom. some people don't even get to know my name!
End this survey with a quote"That which has always been accepted by everyone, everywhere, is almost certain to be false." (Paul Valery)

CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Monday, January 16, 2006

to be sung between night and morning


come, sit with me till this candle burns down,
and brighten the night with the glow of your cheeks;

come, stay with me till the stars lose their light,
and make your two eyes one morning for me.


there is fog outside, and the neighbour's cat
gets his soft paws frozen on our window sill;

come, let us unite the two fires of our hearts,
melt the hoar-frost, and make this blue earth one fresh spring.

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Song of Pure Harmony


The clothes that she wears are thoughts of clouds,
her face a thought of a flower;
dew richly gleams on her window-sill,
blown there by the spring wind's power!

Now, if there won't be that rendez-vous
upon the Jade Mountain's peak,
maybe there's a meeting under the moon
by pure chance, on the Pearly Tower?

Li Bai

Sunday, January 08, 2006

Moonshine


Old Rabbit and Cool Turtle cry,
black lustre of skies they weep;
cloud-towers are standing half ajar
with walls white, wry and steep,
the Jade Wheel's rolling over the dew,
a slushy ball of light;
watch Moon her jewel-embroidered gown
in the laurel bush's odours steep!

The yellow dust and the bluish waves
at the foot of three hills
keep changing a thousand years, yet pace
with a trotting horse they keep;
from thus far, our realm of Ch'i
looks like nine puffs of smoke,
like a bowl to pour washing-water from
the sea, that's so vast and deep!


Li He (791-817)



Most Europeans think there's a Man in the Moon - most Asians see a rabbit there. Apparently the Indians saw the rabbit first, and together with Buddhism the tradition spread as far as Korea and Japan. There are different stories about how he came there, but since he has been living there for thousands of years, it's evident that he knows the secret of long life; they say he sits up there preparing pills that will make you immortal.
According to another Chinese tradition, the moon is a turtle that walks over the sky every night - very slowly. Also, the moon might be a loose wheel from some gigantic chariot of light, or alternatively the face of a beautiful woman; the moon's halo and moonshiny clouds are her garments. One might see one or two of these things in the moon; but Li He manages to see them all at the same time!
The realm of Ch'i is China, of course. And yes, in the second stanza the poet is looking down from the moon.

Li He was one of the best and craziest poets of the T'ang era, and it is believed he derived his strange imagery from the tradition of the shamans, or maybe from shamanistic experiences. He died from poverty and illness at the age of 26.

Saturday, January 07, 2006

...



Heaven and earth aren't civilised;
they take the ten thousand creatures for straw dogs.

The Sage is not civilised, either;
he takes the ten thousand clans for straw dogs.

The space between heaven and earth,
is it not just like a bagpipe?
For all its being empty, it doesn't cave in;
the more you press it, the more comes out.

Many words - a lot of waste;
better keep your tongue at rest.

(Tao Te Ching, chapter V)

In ancient China, they used to ritually burn animals made out of bundled straw - to avoid sacrificing real animals (out of compassion maybe, but certainly to save expense). Those were the "straw dogs" - carefully made, decorated, sometimes even clothed, but no good at all except for being destroyed with great ceremony, worth nothing. Taking something for straw dogs means you don't give a shit for it.
Also, "ten thousand" means "all"; ten thousand creatures means all animals, human or otherwise; and ten thousand clans means all the Chinese people there are, "clan" meaning all those who share the same family name (there are just a bit over one thousand Chinese family names, by the way).

Line 1 and 3 contain the character ren, which consists of a "human being" plus the number "two", and is supposed to denote the "right" relationship between one human being and the other. Most people translate this as "humanity", "morality", even "compassion". Ideally, this should be so - your inner state of mind governing, and being in harmony with everything you do, your heart making you do the right thing to the right person. But this text was written at a time when the true idea of ren had broken down (if, indeed, it had ever existed in that way), and so, what is meant must be a Confucianist kind of ren - the ritualised kind: what you think and feel is a lot less important than what you do. Always treat your little brother as the little brother, and yourself as the big one; always act towards your father as the ideal child, and treat him like the ideal father; if you are a minister, make everyone in the country always feel you are a minister, and if you are a king, ACT like a king, even when sneaking out of the palace at night to sleep with an unofficial concubine.
And the Sage is described as the guy who just won't do any of this.

The space between heaven and earth might be a nicer space if fewer people would go on squeezing nonsense out of the old bagpipe, and just be themselves :-)

Sunday, January 01, 2006

acronyms...

Cheerleader-Abducting Ravager of Unkindness